when is it really over?

This is one of the mornings after another sleepless night I cannot help not to ask myself, “Why didn’t I have a good night sleep again?” Then I would just joke myself and answer it with, “maybe someone’s been thinking of me all night.” Hahaha. Jokes are always half-meant. A friend once said.. Maybe, just maybe, there’s this wishful thinking that someone has really been thinking of me.. Then the memory of the past would, again, bounce in my head. Disturb my sanity and make my day half-miserable. “WHAT IF HE STILL LOVES ME?” It’s just another imaginations, I know another day of “ifs” and “maybes”. For the nth time, I’ve told myself “WHEN IT’S OVER, IT’S REALLY OVER!” There’s no turning back or even trying to pick up again. It’s to move on and face reality! When it’s over, is it really over? When you decide to let go, do you really succeed in letting go? I just heard the latest song of Sugar Ray a while ago here’s few line that caught my attention: When it’s over That’s the time I fall in love again When it’s over That’s the time you’re in my heart again How can possibly say it’s over when you’re still in love with the person you said you were over with already? I guess it’s not that easy when the chain of the past locks you in the chest of hopes and leads you to a place called FANTASY, with Cinderella and Snow White as your best friends! The 3 of you would gather on the hilltop and after a while 3 young drop-dead gorgeous princes would came riding on their horses to join the picnic under the tree. How pathetic! but admit it or not, it’s true! The hardest part of losing a loved one is to accept the fact that they’re gone and might never come back again. There are things that will always remind you of your togetherness. The places you’ve been. His favorite food you used to cook for him, expressions you used to hear from him and songs you’ve both loved to sing. These are the memories that linger on your mind from time to time. Because you were both in loved before, it makes you hope for another chance. You begin to believe on what others said that “Love is lovelier the second time around” and the line from Ally Mcbeal, “Whoever said that plenty fish in the big sea, things is lying, sometimes, there’s only one! Trust me!” we would desperately believe that what happens in the movies might also happen to us one day. Who didn’t like the lines from the movie Run Away Bride, were Julia Roberts told Richard Gere, “I guarantee that we’ll have tough times, I guarantee that in some point, one of us would want to get it out, I also guarantee that if I don’t ask you to be mine, I’ll regret this for the rest of my life, ’cause I know, in my heart, you’re the only one for me..” We tend to think that the person who left us will come back one day and say those words or just simple words but would promise forever. Problems may occur every now and then, but we would consider those things as trials to be conquered in order for the relationship to bloom mature. Ouch!! Reality just hit me! More often than not, these romantic movies and mushy love songs only make us long for something we cannot have and for someone who cannot be ours again. It hurts to admit that we are just pretending. All the while, we already knew the truth but we ignore it. When damage is done, there’s nothing left to do but cry, to mourn for the bitterness in our hearts. Then curse anybody who gets in the way. I’m scared! As long as we still hold in the past, the chance of meeting someone new maybe a bit far off the field.The fear of trusting and falling in love again may also hinder us to grow and move on. We are hesitant to take the risk, afraid that we may get hurt again. Because of the negative thoughts stocked in our brains, we refuse to go out from our self-made WORLD and deprive ourselves from new opportunities, whether in love affairs or career wise. Let’s face it! Betrayal can be anywhere and anyone can be a victim. The worst part is when the one we truly, madly and deeply love is the one who will betray us in the end. Then we are left with nothing but a broken heart and wounded pride. Sad but true. Reality, check please! It can happen to anyone but we shouldn’t just take things as it comes. An action must be done. We should take care of ourselves from the hungry wolves in the jungle. It’s just a matter of survival. Stand up when you fall! It’s ok to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just make sure that when you stop crying, you won’t cry for the same reason anymore. Live and Live! LOVE IS THE MOST WONDERFUL THING ONE CAN OFFER, SO BE SMART ENOUGH TO GIVE YOUR HEART TO THE ONE WHO REALLY DESERVES IT!

Hmm when its really yours it will come back,but if not then let it go.

HAIKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ANG LUPET NAMAN NYAN...GUSTO KO UNG LINE NA BE SMART ENOUGH TO GIVE YOUR HEART TO THE ONE WHO REALLY DESERVES IT.GOD BLESS YOU

Thank you po sa mtyaga nyong pgbabasa khit npkahaba hehe..tgc all and may our heart guide us well to the goal that we foresee...may god bless us all...